I am a little out of order here but wanted to "capture" my thoughts while I remembered them...
Funny how life works out sometimes, I had told Judie I would host a table way back in January and instantly thought of my theme. I always know I am supposed to do certain things for God when it comes easily...amen?! I chose nautical because some of my favorite "captured moments" center around time on the boat and at the lake.
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.
Then wouldn't you know life got hard and sad and this spring has been a challenge. As I was preparing and having to look at this verse over and over and over again this week, God challenged me. An anchor for the soul. An anchor's job is to hold secure a boat so that it doesn't drift. God is holding me secure so I don't drift even though the tumultuous storms of this life may make me feel like I am drifting, He holds me secure in His hand. Firm and Secure.
I shared our miscarriage story today as part of the event. We had "captured moments", if you will of womens' lives. It was so encouraging to hear we all struggle, we are all weak but God's power is perfected in our weakness. Let me just process that again, we all struggle and are all imperfect, I needed to hear I am not alone today.
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
When I agreed to share, in the back of my head I was sure I could share a "happily ever after" to conclude...you know something along the lines of, "We struggled but God provided another baby." Then over the weekend, we found out we weren't expecting yet and I was mad (like sit in church last Sunday and refuse to sing mad, yep that was me). I seriously contemplated not sharing our story as it was still so fresh, the wound still healing.
But something crazy happened this week, I asked for prayer from a few close friends and 2 other dear friends randomly contacted me and told me I was on their heart and they were praying for me. I knew in God's strength I could share and He wasn't giving up on me despite me wanting to give up on Him and His plan. He is a gracious and loving God.
I shared this blog post
(edited to leave a few bits out). Just reading it again reminded me how God carried us through that day and if I let Him, He will carry me through everyday until we have another baby or until we don't. (those are hard words to type, let alone accept, but even if we never have another baby, God will carry me through, He wants the best for me).
With all the sharing, music (they sang beautifully one of my new favorites Oceans by Hillsong United
) and table decorating (themes included African, Tuscan Sun, My Lifesong Sings, Goody Goody Gumdrop, Daffodils, Rose Garden, His Light Shines in the Darkness, Spring & Garden Party). It was a fabulous way to spend a day, meet new people and be reminded of God's amazing grace and lavish love for us. The room was a buzz and God was glorified - I call that a success!
Now to think of a theme for next time...I am kidding of course, well not really....off to pinterest I go!