Lately I have NOT been good about taking time out of my day for prayer and devotions with the Lord. Now I believe everyone is different with what they need for that time....so don't feel as I am judging, condemning, insinuating, etc etc etc BECAUSE this is more of a confession than anything else...
This year I have been blessed to be part of an amazing group of women at my church. We call our group the Titus2Women for this reason...
Then they (the older women) can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God. Titus 2:4-5
This group of women has been instrumental in helping me to grow in my faith, my desire to read and memorize the word and be a better wife and mother. I am no where to pefection (actually the more I learn the more I realize how little I know - ha!). They inspire me, pray for me, cry for me (more than once), and give sage advice from the bible.
As part of our walk, I decided I needed to take a more concious effort to read the bible daily but "when?" was the question. As a busy mother of 2, I just didn't know when I was going to fit it in between facebook, laundry and blogging (that is kind of a joke!). I settled on during nap time...most days I try to do it first thing so that if nothing else gets done, I have atleast renewed my soul with God. Most days it works beautifully, when I have accountability.
We don't meet in the summer...now I still see them regularly for play dates but there is no expectation of having a lesson done, or scripture memory completed. That is probably horrible...that I have a hard time getting quiet in the bible if I don't have something specific to do...but I feel like I am just a fish with no where to go swimming around in the fishbowl.
So back to my problem of not getting in the word...getting in the word for the sake of "doing" it is one thing (I don't want to make God a check on the to do list) but I have noticed my ATTITUDE has...well...um...been down right stinky...my mouth has been full of filth and well I have been CRABBY! So this little blog post is my way of jumping back on the bandwagon....reminding myself of WHY I need to be in the word. Renewing my soul on an eternal perspective, asking for the fruits of the spirit and reminding myself how BIG, how awesome, how totally amazing our Father is and then reminding myself that he is shaping me to be the women He desires me to be and He cannot teach me if I am not spending time with him.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked ot for us. Hebrews 12:1
The cloud of witnesses is the people that have been there, done that and have lived to see God's faithfulness - they are God's "testifiers", God's inspiring examples, reminding us that God will shape us, use us and help us run the race he has layed out!
So here's to a shift in the wind, setting sail on a new course...and to a kinder, gentler ME!