One of those days you do not expect...

Saturday, March 12, 2011
Every morning (or most mornings) I wake up and pray for God's will to be done and for me to see God in all things and a few prayers about being a better mother than yesterday...and then proceed on with my morning.  Most days, I seek God for discipline issues, driving safely, praises, and random thoughts.  But yesterday was one of those days where I HAD to be in constant communication with God and trust that He was in control....It was one of those days where I boarded the rollercoaster called "Life" buckled my seatbelt and left the station at 60 MPH falling at a 90 degree angle, jerking left and right, upside down and around not knowing what was next or how my day would end.  There were 2 verses that provided me comfort though, Jeremiah 29:11 and a scripture from Philippians...

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition present your requests to God, and the PEACE which transcends all understanding will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

My normal morning following prayer goes something like this...off to get Solon by singing him the "good morning" song and then heading downstairs to get some "cheerios" for him and some for myself.  I also had to put a breakfast casserole in the oven for MOPS and prepare for any last minute details of all the things I had to take.  Scott normally relieves me so I can grab a quick shower while they have a little dad-son time eating breakfast. 
As I was getting ready I noticed a little cramping in my back and lower abdomen.  (This gets to be some personal info - so be prepared :-).  I went to the bathroom and there was bright red blood.  At that moment, I stopped and just prayed that our precious little one inside me was okay.  It was bright as the red color crayon...fresh blood.  I immediately yelled for Scott to tell him he was not going to work and that I was going to go to the OB.  Continuing to pray in between phone calls to a fellow MOPS mom, with whom I cried through the conversation, to give her all my stuff that had to go to MOPS.  I left a message for the OB and went to lay down in bed hoping the bleeding would stop.  As I lay there a flood of emotions rushed through my head.  Like most women, your mind races through a variety of scenarios from:  what did I do wrong, I forgot my vitamins a couple of days, I had a catscan at the beginning of pregnancy, I have not drank enough water, I was scared about being a mom of 2 to things like I don't want to start over I have been so so sick, I will never meet this child, why God?  But then I decided to call my sister-in-law, a fellow sister in Christ, a great mentor and who has been through miscarriage herself.  She comforted me with stories of women who have bled and not miscarried, she prayed with me and cried with me.  At the end of the conversation she mentioned her brother-in-law was also in a medical emergency at Urgent Care with a severe headache. 
Finally, after no return call from my OB at 9:30, I called and it was such a God thing that my favorite nurse (who helped deliver Solon) was there and told me to come right in and it would be okay.  She is AWESOME.  We dropped Solon off at Mandey's (who is an angel in the flesh) and headed to the OB.  My emotions were still all over the place as I arrived holding back the tears (well a few escaped I have to admit)...
We went to the exam room, I was terrified as Shannon placed the dopplar on my abdomen to find the baby's heartbeat. Tears streaming down my face and praying silently as she moved it around, she comforted me that it was going to be all right and just like that ba-dum-ba-dum-ba-dum-ba-dum a nice and strong (159 bpm) heartbeat from baby.  Tears rolled uncontrollably,  I had never felt such peace and emotion in all my life (besides when I met Solon). Shannon started to cry as Scott grabbed my leg in relief (Oh yes he was my rock - he ROCKS!!!!).  The doctor decided the bleeding was from my cervix which was still fine but since I am on blood thinner, any bleeding that would occur would increase in me.  He sent me for an ultrasound as a precaution and told Scott to have me take it easy...
I, of course, was so relieved and thankful to God for his answer to my prayers and those of whom were praying for us.  God was so good...

But the rollercoaster ride was still only beginning...

I called Raquel to tell her the good news and of course she was happy but Ben, her brother-in-law had just been sent to have an MRI and catscan.  The doctors were concerned.  She promised to call me when they knew more.  Just as God had answered our prayers, we needed to start praying for another...
Around 1 PM, Raquel called with the news that Ben had a brain tumor...what???  He has never had any pain before now, is a father to a 6 month old and a loving husband, how could this be???

On my way to the ultrasound, I prayed that we needed good news.  That this baby had to be doing okay. The baby was great.  Progressing 2 days ahead of schedule.  The only thing was my placenta was low and over my cervix.  Normally, this early in pregnancy that condition corrects itself but it can cause bleeding as I was experiencing.  We had an answer.  I was to take it easy and I will see my doctor for a follow-up on Thursday.

The rest of the afternoon was spent in bed resting and praying.  Praying for discernment for the doctors as Ben was not at home but visiting Raquel in Southern Ohio.  Raquel called again with an updated and said they were going to send him by ambulance to Columbus, to the best hospital in town, Riverside for further testing.  He was still in immense pain and nothing was working to relieve it.  We continued to pray...God can heal all wounds.  By his wounds we can be healed...he can heal miraculously...

Around 8pm as were praying as a family, Raquel called.  Ben had recieved the most extraordinary news.  It was not a tumor but a growth that could either be fixed using medicine or a simple surgery through the nose and they had found a pain medicine that worked and he was finally sleeping.  God is SOOOOO good! 

Yesterday, Japan's world also was thrown upside down with thousand dead and thousands more hurt and devestated.    There are so many reasons we ask God WHY?  This is all I know, God will answer all our questions in heaven.  He has a plan, not ours but his, and we have to trust him and trust that we will never leave His hand.  He is always with us, cries with us, smiles with us, and listens to our prayers.

The greatest comfort I had yesterday through the rollercoaster of the day was Him.  He is the ultimate comforter, healer and savior.  He does answer prayers.  He does not promise smooth sailing and that trials come but what defines us as Christiams is whether in those times we turn to him or away from him.  The comfort of having a personal relationship with him can get you through the rollercoaster of life and when you have that relationship you have the assurance of life everlasting with Him...You may be reading this and think Erin is wacky-do but this is what I know to be true...

So when you have one of those days you do not expect and you barely have time to buckle your seatbelt on the rollercoaster of life, remember this, seek HIM first!  He is so good...
1 comment on "One of those days you do not expect..."
  1. Erin, Thank you for your beautiful post, your beautiful writing and for sharing with us your story. Most of all, thank you for the reminder to seek God first in everything, on those good days and those not so good days. I am very happy everything is ok, and I will be thinking and praying for you!

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